My first immersive foray into the world of plant medicine occurred in Greyton at the loving Blue Hippo Farm - I honour this place deeply for it's holding and sacredness. I chose to do a 'weekend' retreat as I i) needed the time away (fuelled by an intense Soulmate breakup), and ii) didn't want it to be a toe-dipping experience of 'I wish I had done the weekend'. I had been researching Madre Ayahuasca for 6 years (doccies and all the 8000 comment threads) and 'happened' upon San Pedro in my tracings and wanting to master what Ayahuasca 'would be like'. I read about Hapé but didn't pay it much thread! I had no idea that these three teachers would converge for me - in a single weekend! People I have met throughout my life consider me a 'wordsmith'. I have helped shy grooms write soulful wedding speeches that win over their brides 'forever' and I have proofed and reviewed everything from academic to book writing to poetry; though, I am yet to be guided for how to capture these plant teachers in words. I am honestly left speechless - almost two months on. For me, it is a feeling - a deep inner knowing, forged through divine plant-to-human and divine human-to-plant, connection, cleansing, wisdom. At least that part is unmistakeable! I wrote a laundry list of 3 notes on my handset until each of them were at capacity. But, my over-arching intention was that I was going "for all the love; all the healing; all the wisdom; and all the truth". I wanted to know and see EVERYTHING! I knew that everything I would be shown would be 'me' undoubtedly. Who else would be shown to me?! I went for my own healing and to sever that which holds me back from trusting myself and connecting with my ancestors and myself. I wanted to wipe my past clean and clear the slate and clean up my 'sh1t' so that I could move on to the next chapter in my life in wisdom and in truth and fully in my feminine. I sure was gifted that! And I am so so grateful! The weekend as an 'entire' single process was so well paced, held, facilitated and accompanied by mesmerising soul-changing original music and icaros. Nathan and Heinrich are master facilitators, space-holders, music-makers. What I enjoyed most is that I was surprised by each check-in, check-out - nothing was predictable. They were ON the pulse and yet so sensitive, respectful, and holding of what was in the space - collectively or for an individual. I felt heard, seen, loved, respected. I could hear, feel, love, and respect myself - even with 18 others in the same space - WHAT an experience! Within each day scheduled, there were ample spaces to connect with self, others, or nature. Each plant (teacher) and element ceremony was conducted with incredibly deep respect and felt reverence. The way each ceremony was held and executed was with deep kindness, sacredness, anticipation, freedom, and joy. As with anything in life: what you put in, is what you get out. Do the dieta beforehand - do it with ALL your might! You will get THE MOST out of your plant teachers and the journeys they wish to take you on. I had a BOWL of anxiety in my belly brewing for three weeks before the weekend. It had nothing to do with the weekend. But was a thorough indicator of how my mind was getting the better of me and how it was playing me. After the weekend all that anxiety - GONE! From the 6 years of research I concluded: I should have done Ayahuasca for SIX consecutive years - TWICE each year! That's how amazing a teacher she is! San Pedro is a plant teacher I am still learning about. I love Hapé - it totally surprised me and shifted my journey immensely. After the Hapé was administered - I was told to "just keep falling". The immersive weekend has given me the place to just keep falling into. I am falling into life. I am falling inlove with life - my own life - and falling into my own life with such love and respect. I am living my soul's song. I finally see myself. I finally value myself. I am happy and full of joy. I am elated to be in this place because I thought my life would never start or take off. The medicine has witnessed me and transormed me. Two months on, post 18 days integration firectly after the weekend - and I am still being transformed. THE ABOVE are the GIFTS I got from working with the sacred medicines. I honour each of the plant medicine teachers as often as I remember. It is unthinkable to me that God has GIVEN us these teachers right here on earth. And yet, I am living proof of their healing, their presence, and their transformative, sacred power! My name means "A Promise of Unmerited Favour". Before the retreat weekend, it was something I 'understood' in my head. Now, it is something I BREATHE and EMBODY! Honour the Earth. Respect her Medicine. Find yourself. Take nothing for granted. May Your Joy be Full. And may you keep falling into the highest of what is meant for you. I give Thanks. Haux Haux. Grace.